Q: What were some of the feelings you had during the simulation, and how did they change?
A: About fifteen minutes into the simulation, I realized I was wrong in every way. I felt overwhelmed, frustrated, and emotional. There were some moments where I wanted to cry, scream, or just give up.
During one simulation task, I needed to go to the pawn shop to sell my guitar so I could afford two bus tickets. I needed one to go and pay my rent and another one to get to my drug test. When I had “gotten off the bus,” I saw that the shop closed earlier than scheduled. I had relied on this opportunity and had already used my limited funds on transportation. Now I was stranded with no funds for a drug test. I had no money to pay rent. And now, I was stranded with no ability to access transportation.
You hear the word “simulation” and assume it won’t truly feel real, but this experience was different. By the end of the three hours, I didn’t just have a better understanding of the reentry process, I had a lot more compassion for the people who live it every day.